Archive | April 2014

And That’s Not All


This image is from the National Geographic

Tarantulas weren’t enough to shift me out of my un-comfort zone; in fact they were actually placing me “in” my un-comfort zone.  I chose to read the scary story at first not having got around to finding the symbolism, so for the next day I was seeing the dream as a sign of entrapment and so the dreams continued early the next morning.

This time I was on some sort of off shore rig and with a group of elderly people that were all wrapped up in some sort of blanketing and were going to take part in a rolly polly game.  I was concerned we would have a “and they all rolled over and one fell out” scenario.  I felt responsible for this group, a little as if they were one of my tour groups.  I began to climb down from the upper rig areas with a sense of urgency to tell them to be careful and not to roll over and into the sea.  As I climbed down I could see a school of sharks.  At first I could see about 5 circling around the area and all of a sudden there were hundreds coming in close.  I was not concerned about the sharks for myself but very concerned for the people as I ran down to give warning.  All of a sudden I saw a huge Killer Whale and my first reaction was one of absolute awe at such beauty of this magnificent creature.  But quickly I realised this great creature was after me and was headed straight for me.  I turned and ran to escape it as it pushed itself up and onto the platform and I felt the fear rise and then I woke up.

I run tour groups in a land where there are a lot of sharks around if you get my drift.  I’m not afraid of these sharks because I know how to handle them and I understand where they are coming from, but I do get concerned for my groups.  So, I was already thinking this was to do with my tour work, what else could it be?  Why was I receiving this warning?  The Killer Whale was after me and for some reason I felt that was a bad thing.  I thought he was after me like a shark but something didn’t fit the picture quite right, how could this be? It felt like the biggest shark was after me, but reality is this great big so called Killer is actually a very gentle and wise whale.  So, again I waited another day before I Googled having spent now two days thinking in the negative concepts, testing my ability to stay in my Truth.  So I found a site with the symbolism of the Orca also known as the Killer Whale .  I was concerned the sharks would attack these gentle people all wrapped up in their cocoons.  I didn’t want them to come to any harm.  The sharks in many numbers can be so unpredictable and create a great frenzy.  What could I be stirring up by bringing this story to the world, how would it affect those who are not yet ready to hear? This would certainly be enough for me to hold back.  But how would it affect me?  I didn’t personally feel threatened by the sharks but I did feel afraid of the Killer Whale.  It wasn’t until I mentioned the dream to my father that he said Killer Whales are harmless, that I began to wonder what the greater meaning really was. Why did I run from something so beautiful and harmless, what was I afraid of?    He was big, maybe his greatness could crush me.

On the site that I found, once again the meaning fit my experience like a glove.   Again, the message was talking about strength and perseverance, but also it is a sign pointing me toward stepping away from my fears that have been holding me back and into my life’s calling and purpose.  The Orcas have a cosmic consciousness and are connected to the stars.  They hold the secrets of manifestation and alchemy turning thought into form.  But, there was more to this symbolism that at the moment I choose not to reveal lest it paint the wrong picture through the experiences in my life that have had to take a number of years to find the truth and divine meaning.  For now I let that ride until I can write it in a way that shows the perfect balance of yin and yang, of the balance that our journey on this path on earth is here to teach us.  My book is all about symbolism and the process that we all follow and how that relates to the path of the initiate; that is the one who chooses to follow a conscious path toward awakening.  My dreams are reigniting and testing my own faith in following the signs.

I feel happy with the meaning of my dreams and ready to listen to the messages they are bringing me.  Basically they are saying “Don’t be a woos, the time is now, get on with it!”


The Tarantula Speaks


It’s started!  My dreams are bringing forth either my subconscious fears or giving me some valuable guidance along the way, or both.  After coming home from my break away the thing foremost on my mind is that I will need to get back to editing.  The nervousness starts to rise; I’m a high school drop out, finishing school in year 11, opting to quit rather than to face the possibility of failure.  Fear of failure; was it rising is ugly head once again?  I was always a top student at school and yet I had an immense fear of not being good enough and so it would be easier to leave school and choose secretarial college rather than find out if I could actually meet the expectancies of teachers and family.  I was in charge of my life and no way was anyone going to stop me from “not failing”.  Maybe the joke was on me as I chose to quit and take the easy road.

My life has been rich with experience and by no means ordinary.  I have created a life filled with amazing and out there experiences and feel fulfilled and with little room for boredom, so not finishing school has not stopped me from achieving all that matters to me; that of helping others and making a difference in the world.  You don’t necessarily need an education for that.  However, here I am, feeling the fear once again and my dreams are talking to me.

 Early morning after arriving home from my break late the night before…. this sounds like I’m about to go into rhyme… “not last night but the night before, 24 robbers came knocking at my door!”  Anyway, early that morning I had a dream of a big fat tarantula sitting high in the corner of my room, glaring over me.  He made me nervous, naturally!  “What is tarantula?”, I think as I go to Google for the symbolism of Tarantula.  I chose a site that I use from time to time that resonates with me –

Creativity and Weaver of Fate

A spider totem teaches you balance — 
between past and future, physical and spirit, male and female.
She is strength and gentleness combined.
She awakens creative sensibilities
and reminds you that the past is always interwoven with the future.

Spiders are the keepers of the primordial alphabet
and can teach you how to write creatively. 
Her body is shaped like the number 8 and she has 8 legs, 
which is symbol of infinite possibilities of creation.
Her 8 legs represent the 4 winds of change and the 4 directions of the medicine wheel.

Spider’s message is that you are an infinite being who will continue
to weave patterns of life and living throughout time.
Do not fail to see the eternal plan of creation.

Those who weave magic with the written word usually have this totem.

I should breathe easy with this message that is reminding me of my great power to create my own destiny.  I am perfectly on track, and I should not sway to the fear within.

Is Tarantula speaking to you today?

This entry was posted on April 14, 2014. 4 Comments

It Said Take a Break

Natural Bridge at the Gap, Albany, Western Australia

Natural Bridge at the Gap, Albany, Western Australia

Nearly a week ago, I realised I was pretty much done with the first draft of my book.  It was time to start looking at where the next step should be.  I did a bit of Googling to find out what suggestions I could find and the one that jumped out at me was ~ “Take a break!” and apparently the longer you have been writing then that should determine the length of the break.  Take a week or two… I guess I would be in the category of the two, but then again, I have only written intermittently for the last 10 years because I had to live the experience before I could write it and then I had to heal from the experience so I could write it from a healed perspective and see the bigger picture.  So, take a break is easy given I already had a weeks holiday planned and now instead of seeing that as an obstacle to finishing my work, I saw it as the perfect ingredient to allow me to return to my work fresh and hopefully with new inspiration to add as I move through the editing experience.

I have a publisher in mind, but as I did my feeble amount of research the other big thing that stood out to me was that they do not look at anyone who does not have an agent.  So, I guess I’ve learned two things so far and I have a direction to follow.  I’m seriously not going to overload myself or I know full well I will stop and probably waste another couple of years.  It looks like I have a lot of work ahead of me and I need to be careful that I don’t get sidetracked with the researching that I conveniently detour from the editing!

I’m back and I’m delaying myself again… I’ll give myself one more day and then I have to face my story again… for the thousandth time because I did tend to get side tracked with as you go type editing as my own healing process brought me back time and time again to rewrite from a more healed perspective.  I’m envisaging there is a lot more to tidy up as I go this time…. wish me luck!

Just like the photo I took on my break down south, I feel I have a natural bridge to cross, but it feels like I’m not allowed on it for fear of being washed by a freak wave!!

I Am Who I Am



This entry was posted on April 13, 2014. 2 Comments

A New Beginning


This blog is the starting point for me really.  I’ve been writing a book that I have been pregnant with for the last 10 years.  As the book unfolds we witness a love story, a scary movie, a comedy and all that seems unreal manifesting into the world that we call real.  But most of all my book is simply one woman’s journey toward Oneness.  My awakening, my purpose and my gift that I have to offer humanity that unfolds as I unfold.  We all have something and we all have a book, or so they say.  My story unfolds in a way that I hope to be able to portray the ups and downs to put it mildly, the challenges the great loves and the great losses that all make up who we are.  But for me this is more than just a journey, this is about Life itself, about life beyond life and about the ultimate journey toward the Godhead in whatever terminology that is to you.  God is Good, Good is God, God is Geometry and God is Divine.  I hope to show you how the Divine and the Geometry, the Sacred of Sacreds is unfolding like a lotus petal through the journey of life.  I hope to be able to shock you and excite you and enfold you in the energy of Love; a love that is beyond human love; the Love that is Divine and the Love that allows us to be in acceptance of all that is because we awaken to the All That Is.

This blog is beginning now because I have finished my first draft of the first book of two, or maybe even three in this series before I embark upon the many books I have the desire to write on the many topics that are my passion.  I know I am about to embark upon a new journey of challenges as I set to learn about where I go from here in bringing my book to the world.  The editing is just about to begin, and I feel within my being a nervousness that I know if I let it, will become a force that could block my further progress.  I’m not going to let that happen, so I am writing this blog to share the journey with you; the pitfalls, the stumbles and even snippets of my story.  With your encouragement I’m bringing this amazing story of the journey with LUXOR Light; an energy of the Divine that I was shown how to share with the world.  I hope to awaken you to a thirst of wanting to know more, of wanting to taste this experience for yourself in your own way under the terms of your soul’s desire.  I hope that my ordinary self can share my extra-ordinary story with you so you can see the extra-ordinary in you!

In Love We Unite


This entry was posted on April 6, 2014. 4 Comments